Trying harder and harder to forget her
The memories flood in
They push their way through
Her laugh, her smile, her scent, her touch, her kisses--that took you to another place
They become more and more real
They invade your mind, they swim through your thoughts, they pound on your heart, and your stomach--that aching

Buried behind everything you do are memories of her...and you
Buried behind everything you do is the beautifully haunting face of the one who slipped through your fingers like a cool breeze gliding through a tree
All the things that remind you of her
All the little things you want to tell her

Shes the first face you see when you clasp your hands to pray
When your wings begin to tatter
When your world spins so fast you lose your step
You scream so loud into the pillow
but the smell of her hair is not enough

One day, she walked away, without warning
Quickly and quietly
They wondered why, they wondered where
She left behind only a cloud of dust
Her well ran dry, she folded her hand, she bowed out
Enough had finally arrived
She left quickly and quietly
They wondered why, they wondered where 
She walked away 
Out of a gray fog
Her heart started beating 
And she began living

she walked into your world
you came to life
you were never the same
you curse the day you met her
but you wouldn't change a thing 

To be alive is to hurt
To be human is to feel pain 
Beauty and tragedy in life are the same 
The only way to not hurt, is to not feel
To live life in a dream, where nothing is real
What's behind your smile? 
Joy that lasts for only for awhile?
What's behind your laughter?
Is nothing really the matter? 
We hurt for the things we can't control
This means we have a heart and soul
To be alive is to hurt
To be human is to feel pain 
Beauty and tragedy in life are the same 

Every once in a moon that is blue
I walk to the ocean shore and wait for you
Brought together for but a moment in time
We drifted apart for no reason or rhyme


Fate has its ways of guiding our paths
With sharp twists and turns that happen so fast
An enchanting love story we once shared
Together our lives seemed perfectly paired


As the tides roll in splashing tiny pieces of sand
I dream of the day when you held my hand
But as I stare into the sky so black
I realize I don't need you back


I lie down by the shore for only moments it seems
and my mind slips into colorful dreams
I am awakened to the light of day;
To the sound of strangers passing by the bay


A tall, dark figure in the distance I see
This mysterious figure is moving toward me
And I ask myself, "Could it be?"

It was just another hour It was just another day
Until fate designed a crafty plan
Now they'll never be the same

A single thought and word lead to action
As they wrestle against this deep attraction
Their fire burns into the night
and they begin to lose the fight

Nature had a stronger will
Strong enough to make time stand still
What a cruel joke for fate to play
Uniting two souls without a chance or a way

Now they stare into the same black sky
Another day has passed them by

With all the wasted tears we cry We just let time pass us by

Too busy searching for so much more
We miss what's knocking at our door

Our here and now become yesterday
While bright skies turn to grey

Desperate for wounds to heal so fast
While desperately clinching to pain from the past

Our sorrow lingers on through the night
But dawn gives birth to the brightest light

That light brings hope and a brand new day
That light brings wholeness and healing our way

With healing comes joy and a fresh tomorrow
Bringing closure to the chapter of pain and sorrow

Fade

She once was so strong, but now she is weak/Her voice was so loud and now she can't speak/Her smile so bright, faded to a grin/The warm light in her eyes turned cold and dim/The heaviest of burdens once felt so light/With the weight she now carries, she can't make it through the night/That girl was so ambitious, so hopeful, and unique/Now her drained lifeless eyes cry, "You did this to me."

abandon

i abandoned all/and let it fall/you tore down the wall/built up so high around my heart/only to let it all fall apart/you taught me to love without question/you taught me to never trust again/you played my heart like a fool/are you the exception or the rule?

True Love's Fate

"Just to be close to you," She whispers to him in the midnight air,
"I'd give up everything. I'd travel anywhere.
To be close to you forever and never wonder where you are,
I'd go to the ends of the earth and sleep among the stars."
"Just to be close to me," He softly whispers back...
"You'd give up everything? You'd do anything I asked?"
"Yes, I'd give up everything and do anything you asked."
He paused for a moment, oh so deep in thought...
"Let's take the dare of true love's fate.
Let's turn around and walk away.
We'll live our lives as though our paths never crossed.
As though we are unaware of the love we've lost.
If our roads once again intertwine,
I will be forever yours and you forever mine."
So without a thought and without a care,
they tested their love through this fateful dare.
They turned around and walked away,
hoping to return to the arms of one another someday.

oh what tender hearts
and fragile souls
we all hold
spirits so easily broken

hidden

o inspiration, where are you hiding
are you outside, in the cold
hiding beyond these four walls
dear inspiration
when i long to express emotions buried deep within
and the thoughts that are backed up like traffic in my mind...you hide
water drips, i hear it in the distance
the clock continues to tick, second after second
the streets are busy with people passing
but everything else stands still
when thoughts in my mind are ready to explode
when anxieties, fears and frustrations change from day to day
everything else stands still
sweet inspiration
at times you offer yourself in endless amounts
other times you stay hidden
and you leave me with nothing else to ponder but where you may be

noiseless sound

i sit and listen to the sound of silence
in that sound i hear Your voice
the most distant sound is where You lie
i must push out the noise, all the other noise...
so easy to hear
so easy it seems
easy to listen to all the other noise

so hard to be silent
in fear of what i might hear
Your voice feels so far
yet it's so very near
in the sound of silence lies the key to Your voice
in that noiseless sound Your voice cries out
it stills my heart , it calms my fears

so my soul battles against the noise
my heart, my mind, my thoughts...they battle to hear Your voice
You long to be heard
in a great big world
with so much noise
through the rain
the pain
the colors
and the glitz
the noise
the toys
the anger
and the fists...
through it all Your voice remains
soft and gentle
free of worry
free of pain

"He loves me not"

she waits at the gate
he seems to be late
each moment feeling like an hour
she holds a single flower
"he loves me, he loves me not," are the words stirring in her head
"will he be the one i choose to wed?"
her patience grow thin as her thoughts grow louder
another moment passes, still feeling like an hour
her excitement it seems she can no longer contain
until she feels the first heavy drop of rain
the clouds begin to cover the sun
minutes pass one by one

the sky grows dark and the rain pours down

her once giddy smile turns into a frown

"this evening did not turn out the way I thought"

she pulls the last two petals...

"he loves me, he loves me not."

we must:

feel something beyond the surface
love someone more than ourselves
give patience when we have no more
stand tall when life weighs us down
shine bright in the darkness
believe in more than this world offers
offer more than this world has to give

fog.

my thoughts are delayed
my mind in a haze
what can i do
what can i say
it's foggy here
emotions swirling around
oh how i long to write them down
uncertain
unsure
is it the beginning or the end?
a foe or a friend?
i observe
i imagine
i wonder
i desperately search...

clowdy

the insecurity of life
the uncertainty in time
sleepless nights
tired days
wishing and hoping life away
so many choices
but not enough means
she wonders, she hopes, she dreams

the way they're meant to be

do things always happen the way they're meant to be

they were so close together but now they're free

life and distance

time and space

when will he see her face to face?

time passes slowly as the season's change

she tries to call him but he's out of range

the bond they once held begins to erase

one day he realizes, she's in a different place

one day she realizes, time is too valuable to waste

life brought them together for a moment in time

they told themsleves things would be just fine

they gave it their all

and began to fall

away, away

too soon?

who's to say

regret

God put you on my heart today
but i chose to look the other way
"it's been too long," i told myself
"she'll think i'm weird or someone else"

yesterday you were on my heart
from the moment that my day did start
i ignored the nudge that i felt deep down
and continued on with things around town

last week God put you on my heart
last month He told me you needed a new start
it had been so long and i chose to forget
now i have to live my life with regret

i know now that you were desperate for help
i know now that you were not well
now that i know, it's too late
how i wish things could start over on a clean slate
i realize now there's no time to wait

God gave me the nudge and let ME make the choice
to take the easy way out or listen to His voice
now that you're gone
oh how i long
to change the decisions i made wrong

we must remember that the choices we make
can determine the steps another might take
the day we step out of our comfort zone
could be the day we find someone lost and alone
lets choose everyday to be aware
and let our light's shine with out a care

i stepped in gum today...

i stepped in gum today

it's on the bottom of my shoe

i stepped in gum today

while visiting the zoo

it's sticky just like glue

someone chewed a piece of gum

and when they were through

they didn't know what to do

so now their gum is stuck like goo

on the bottom of my shoe

i guess gum is better than poo